Karlee, With all due respect, which is all that I have ever given you, even though we disagree on a lot, I am not the one who said those things. If the roles were turned and I said in essence that your life would be easier if Erin never exsisted and that you shouldn't have had her, you would be hurt. Or you would conceive that as a jerky remark. Constant remarks such as these are not funny, they are core hurtful. For years I have ignored these comments and laughed with you, even though It wasn't comical. It was in that moment that you showed me where you stand with your feelings. Family council is not a place to discuss those things. This is between you and me, and I have never brought anyone else into the mix. Everyone else was brought in when those things were said at the dinner table by you. It was at that moment that everyone else that heard it got after you, not me. I left because I didn't want to hear it anymore, nor did I want to be hurtful back. That last few times I saw you, I was cordial. Even though you have never made an attempt at amending. I don't feel I am wrong, I have never acted inappropriately to you that I am aware of. If I knew I had been, I would apologize. As for my blog, Its a brief journal for me that hardly anybody reads. You are the only one in the family that reads it. My intention is to not make it public but to journalize. I didn't write it for you. Karlee, I have always tried to see the good in you and kept my mouth shut when I disagree. I have never wanted to cause problems. I hope my actions can attest to that.
Karlee, I appreciate your thoughts. When I told you, "are you trying to pick a fight with me?" that was my way of telling you that was upsetting me. I very rarely tell people that they upset me. I rather, try to stop and see where they are coming from and work through it. In your case it didn't stop. And hasn't for years. If somebody said that about Erin on going for years how would you view your relationship with that person? I think for the most part people don't intend to cause harm. I don't understand where the rumers have started. I only recall saying "Karlee always harasses me for having too many children." Of which was said to Tyson and Shylo. When the whole family told you they thought that was rude, was that not saying something then? I think the most hurtful thing was when you laughed it off when clearly it was an unkind thing to say to me or to any mother for that matter. It ceases to be a joke when it is repeated for years. I would assume that it is only obvious that it is hurtful, which for the life of me I cannot and have not figured out where you were coming from. Like I said, I stopped many times and tried to analyze and reason through your words. I had nothing to do with the dinner conversation that you and Cindy were having yet you turned and jabbed me twice by saying you were the smart one, what does that leave me then. I can only presume the "dumb" one. This entire thing is dumb. It's not worth the fight. More than anything I was left with wondering what your intentions were with me. Furthermore, I came to understand or rather felt, that you didn't value me or a relationship with me. You knew what you did, yet laughed it off. Karlee, I don't want to fight. I never have, which is why I have kept my distance. I am not mad at you, just confused and have adapted new perceptions. I thank you for words. (This is rather funny that this is all on blogging. Talk about not bringing it into the family)
Hello, welcome to our blog! Tyson and Karlee got married on September 5, 2003. When people asked "So, when are you going to have kids?" We answered "six years" It was kind of a joke answer to get them off our backs, but it happened! Erin Sage was born on March 13, 2009, and we couldn't be more thrilled. Sometimes we want to run away screaming, but we wouldn't trade it! Rylee Mae was born on August 15, 2011, and we are even more thrilled! It has been a challenge, but also the best time of our lives to have two adorable little girls. This blog is mostly about them, hopefully you will enjoy it!
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Karlee,
With all due respect, which is all that I have ever given you, even though we disagree on a lot, I am not the one who said those things. If the roles were turned and I said in essence that your life would be easier if Erin never exsisted and that you shouldn't have had her, you would be hurt. Or you would conceive that as a jerky remark. Constant remarks such as these are not funny, they are core hurtful. For years I have ignored these comments and laughed with you, even though It wasn't comical. It was in that moment that you showed me where you stand with your feelings. Family council is not a place to discuss those things. This is between you and me, and I have never brought anyone else into the mix. Everyone else was brought in when those things were said at the dinner table by you. It was at that moment that everyone else that heard it got after you, not me. I left because I didn't want to hear it anymore, nor did I want to be hurtful back. That last few times I saw you, I was cordial. Even though you have never made an attempt at amending. I don't feel I am wrong, I have never acted inappropriately to you that I am aware of. If I knew I had been, I would apologize. As for my blog, Its a brief journal for me that hardly anybody reads. You are the only one in the family that reads it. My intention is to not make it public but to journalize. I didn't write it for you. Karlee, I have always tried to see the good in you and kept my mouth shut when I disagree. I have never wanted to cause problems. I hope my actions can attest to that.
Karlee,
I appreciate your thoughts. When I told you, "are you trying to pick a fight with me?" that was my way of telling you that was upsetting me. I very rarely tell people that they upset me. I rather, try to stop and see where they are coming from and work through it. In your case it didn't stop. And hasn't for years. If somebody said that about Erin on going for years how would you view your relationship with that person? I think for the most part people don't intend to cause harm. I don't understand where the rumers have started. I only recall saying "Karlee always harasses me for having too many children." Of which was said to Tyson and Shylo.
When the whole family told you they thought that was rude, was that not saying something then? I think the most hurtful thing was when you laughed it off when clearly it was an unkind thing to say to me or to any mother for that matter. It ceases to be a joke when it is repeated for years. I would assume that it is only obvious that it is hurtful, which for the life of me I cannot and have not figured out where you were coming from. Like I said, I stopped many times and tried to analyze and reason through your words. I had nothing to do with the dinner conversation that you and Cindy were having yet you turned and jabbed me twice by saying you were the smart one, what does that leave me then. I can only presume the "dumb" one. This entire thing is dumb. It's not worth the fight. More than anything I was left with wondering what your intentions were with me. Furthermore, I came to understand or rather felt, that you didn't value me or a relationship with me. You knew what you did, yet laughed it off. Karlee, I don't want to fight. I never have, which is why I have kept my distance. I am not mad at you, just confused and have adapted new perceptions. I thank you for words.
(This is rather funny that this is all on blogging. Talk about not bringing it into the family)
By the way, Trevor didn't say those things. I was logged onto his account.
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